Ebay Haul

Bonsoir! It's me again, and I just got done buying a lot  few things from Ebay. I haven't posted my circle lens review yet; simply because I'm almost never able to take pictures during the day. I've been pretty busy. :( I do plan on doing it soon, although I haven't worn them in public yet.

Onto the haul!

Dragon Ear Cuff 

 Recently, dragons have become an obsession of mine. So mysterious and delicate. It will definitely receive double-takes. It's very different; and at my school, no one has joined the ear cuff train yet.

Vintage Retro Oval Shaped Round Clubmaster Sunglasses   So beautiful! I'm enjoying the circle shaped glasses trend at the moment. Very Jackie O-esque.

Vintage Retro Oval Shaped Round Clubmaster Sunglasses

 

So beautiful! I'm enjoying the circle shaped glasses trend at the moment. Very Jackie O-esque.

Peter Pan Collar Dress

 Okay. I HAD to buy this dress! Look at the tribal print! And it's Peter Pan collared?! A must-have.

Also looking forward to thrifting this week. And I studded some loafers! I gotta start adding some pictures...

Trying to Fix it All.

I'm so messed up. Like seriously. I'm torn in all the wrong places: insecure, not confident, awkward, fearful and not intelligent enough. Yes, I'm a critic. And I'm even harder on myself than anyone else. So like last week, I had a great conversation with God inside my car. And it got me to thinking: I can't do it alone. I need Him in my life. So I'm giving up all secular music, cursing (bad habit.) and bad thoughts (I tend to have a lot of those.), and judging people. My ideals are so misconstrued to fit the aches and wants fo this world. And this isn't my home; my home is with the Lord. And I've heard all these words time and time again. Possibly more from myself to others; but I mean it. I need to try. Though I can't fix everything in one day, just attempting to prove myself worthy of God's gracious love is a step ahead of where I am now.

Back from Cali.

Had an amazing vacation with the family in LA. We went to Disneyland, Universal Studios, tours of the star's homes, and Santa Monica Pier. Just got back this morning. I've always been a bit wary of California, holding onto the misconception of California being hotter than Texas, and having frequent earthquakes. Boy was I WRONG. About the weather, I mean. God blessed us enough that we didn't experience any earthquakes or rumbles. The weather was stunning. Cold at night, and breezy in the afternoon. Just like Vancouver, come to think of it. And the PEOPLE. Wow. Everyone was SO FIT. When I saw a somewhat obese person, it was just a relief to know that I wasn't alone lol.

The women were stereotypical to the American dream: fake blondes, very tan, minimal clothes. And those that were fully clothed were dressed very well. Think heels to the grocery store well. Lips and noses made perfect by plastic surgeons. Barely a lick of fat on ANYONE. D:

Men: Well dressed, athletic (I was at Muscle Beach.), tan, often gay-looking. I couldn't tell the difference between homosexual or metrosexuals. Then again, I barely talked to anyone other than my family. So many attractive men! Unlike here in Texas; or Houston to be exact. :(

The styles were so different: hipster, preppy, beachy, casual, business...and the list goes on. When I saw a clique, they were almost all dressed alike. Girl sporting tattoos without embarrassment; men with long hair and headbands. Wow. Is all I can say. The competition is something serious there; everyone is practically perfect.

So in a nutshell: Everyone is perfect in California. I have a lot of work to do.

New lens; Review to follow

Puffy 3tones Brown
 
Puffy 3tones Blue

iFairy Moe Moe Brown









So... I just got on Fobby Barbie about 2 weeks ago and ordered. (Another product of late night restlessness.) And I got these 3 lens.

The Puffy 3 tones brown is pretty big stuff. It changes your entire eye color to this piercing blue; and recently on Shuntara's BlogSpot, she posted a review and video. The blue is breath-taking. And I said to myself: "I MUST HAVE. NOW." April Fool Romance posted a review as well on her BlogSpot, and the color has grown on me.
 





The Puffy 3tones brown has this hazel-ish glow to it. Seeing a how my eyes are naturally poop brown, this will be a nice change. I haven't seen a review for the lens on dark skin, so I'll go ahead and review this on for sure. ^.^ Jeban's review. It isn't in English.

 




Really excited for the Moe Moe Brown; because in pictures they give a beautiful hazel look to dark eyes. They don't look natural; then again neither am I. ;) *Not a sexual innuendo.* As you can see, these look gorgeous on her skintone. Really refreshing color on her. I'm hoping to emit the same effect.


Occasionally Cute's review!

Amazon haul.

The Sigma brushes, on Amazon

I just purchased these Sigma brushes (The Essential Kit); looking so forward to their arrival. I've heard all the raves and hype about these brushes, and finally took it upon myself to YOLO. (It was pretty late, and I tend to online shop during the night.) *hangs head in shame* The total price was 100.10, 89.00 + shipping. What I'm really wanting to try out is the stipple brush. I have one; but not of amazing quality. And with an extra one, I have more room to do fun activities! Haha.

Braiding hair.

So, I also got some braiding hair because my braids have been in since January. Don't judge me. :( I've been away at school, and haven't found anyone who does hair up there. Well. But I got my sides redone in March; not that that makes it any better. But honestly, my hair is a hot mess at the moment, and I'd like to take all of it out! So I came up with this brilliant idea of a mermaid hair and braids combo. What I wanna do is: half of my braids will be regular black. And half of the remaining half will be dark blue. And the remaining quarter will be light blue. Now that I'm looking at it; I'm beginning to doubt myself... But whatever. YOLO.

I'll have reviews up soon. And possibly pictures of my hair..if it works out. :)

Lonely

Been living in this state for a while. Unlike Texas, it's a chillier here. More of a breeze. I wake up early to read the Bible with some of the fam. Then I go back to bed, only to be awoke by my grandma. Then I bathe, get ready and drive her where she needs to go. Then I apply for jobs, help grandma, pick up my brother and head back home to clean up the house. You'd think being around so many people, there'd be no room for loneliness. But it's here. Sorry for all the depressing stuff; I'm just in this really weird mood combination of depression and anger. Always alone. I never got the brains, the beauty, the strength of the family. I'm so damn useless. I contemplate life so much. I really can't stand it. I'd like to leave it.

Nervous

The decision will have to be made this week. I've let my parents down SO much over the years. I feel like I'm such a burden financially and physically. I can't do a damn thing right. And it fucking sucks! In my heart, all I've wanted was to make them proud of me. To see that glimmer in their eyes, that hearty chuckle, the knowing grin; and knowing it's all for me. That I've finally done it. I'm a fucking idiot. That much is true. And I need to accept the fact. I have smart parents and I'll NEVER amount to half of what they are. They came all the way from Africa for nothing. Just a fat 160 pound piece of nothing. Need to stop lying to myself. Life would be so much easier without me.

Pain

Endured by most. Often a sign of being alive. If life was so easy, wouldn't everyone want kids? Follow their dreams? But now, this is being carried on my shoulders. Fear of leaving behind people I've fought so hard to remain in contact with. Fear of a place without democracy and too many time restraints. As this prudent and adamant fact is brought to hand, the value of money/time/love/friendship becomes more meaningful. I don't want to leave; but I'll just watch you go. But if there's a will, there's a way. Praying that God comes through for me this time.